"My cup overflows with blessings. Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life., and I will live in the house of the Lord forever." (Psalm 23:5-6)
Fullness -the idea of being satiated, full of goodness, full of Him. It's not some pipe dream, not some fantastical idea - this idea that God will fill you with His spirit. Yet, how much time do we spend in disbelief? How much time do we spend questioning the joy of living life fully and completely?
Ann Voskamp wrote "Empty containers can make us seekers" -One Thousand Gifts Devotional. And I sit and I ponder this, this morning, how empty is necessary before filling. How a complete draining - a leaking out is what prepares us for more.
And how many times have I stood before God - begging a filling while staunchly holding up an already full to the brimming heart - a heart full of expectations, demands and wishes. These things -my expectations- I constantly place at God's feet with an "if only."
"If only you could do this Lord."
"Perhaps you could see your way clear to move this way - my way."
"I am fairly certain God, that this next thing - that I want so badly - it must be on your path for me - I am fairly certain."
And, how can God show me His mercy when the pot is already full? How can my eyes be open to His map for my life when I have plotted and marked my own course?
It is difficult to seek when the heart is too full of self. And this emptying, it must be a daily thing. For His mercies are new every morning. Every morning He invites me to sit at the table that is ladened with His feast for me (Psalm 23:5). Every morning I must come to the table empty, willing, ready to receive.
All of my preconceived notions, all of my thoughts and ideas? They must all be emptied and laid at His feet.
His purpose, His will.
Empty to fill.